so i've definitely been ditching my cute little blog for tumblr. im sorryy blog. tumblr's just so much more for me. i still love you though. and i will never ditch you forever. i will always come back to you at some point!
So mad people died this past week. =/. I dont understand the things god does sometimes. Like seriously! why must you take good people away? why?!? it really just doesnt make sense to me at ALL. but i mean its not up to me to make sense of it. He's God and can do whatever he wants.
The other day i went to sleep thinking about my great grandmother and the time que ella se me aparecio. it was wierd cuz things like that freak me out pero that actually helped me go to sleep. i think it was just knowing that shes always gonna take care of us no matter where she is. its actually a really good feeling. it makes me feel very safe because i know that she won't let anything bad happen to us. i love her very much! and i miss her more than words can tell. & i miss Joshua Guitelman too. its almost been a year but mad times it feels like it was yesterday. imy buddy.
RIP mama estela & josh & now babo ='[
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
un giorno di neve!!
Snow dayy!!
So there's another snow day !! Woot woot. Lol I'm glad there's no school but the snow messed up my plans =/. W.e life goes on lol. So I was talking to vidi yest. And we were talking about my last post. And u know what. She's right. Fuck tryna make everything perfect and worrying about the future. I need to live in the present and be happy with what I have right now! So fuck the first part of my last post I'm very veryy happy =).
Its like luis enrique says:
"Yo no se mañana
Si estaremos juntos
Si se acaba el mundo
Yo no se si soy para ti
Si seras para mi
Si lleguemos a amarnos o odiarnos
Yo no se mañana
Yo no se mañana quien va a estar aqui!"
Who knows what's gonna be tomorrow? Cuz I don't. So why try to figure it out and to live for it? Fuck it just live for today and make today the best it can be and enjoy everything you have and are given. Especially things & people that can honestly make you smile. Things like that don't come around that often.
~till next time
So there's another snow day !! Woot woot. Lol I'm glad there's no school but the snow messed up my plans =/. W.e life goes on lol. So I was talking to vidi yest. And we were talking about my last post. And u know what. She's right. Fuck tryna make everything perfect and worrying about the future. I need to live in the present and be happy with what I have right now! So fuck the first part of my last post I'm very veryy happy =).
Its like luis enrique says:
"Yo no se mañana
Si estaremos juntos
Si se acaba el mundo
Yo no se si soy para ti
Si seras para mi
Si lleguemos a amarnos o odiarnos
Yo no se mañana
Yo no se mañana quien va a estar aqui!"
Who knows what's gonna be tomorrow? Cuz I don't. So why try to figure it out and to live for it? Fuck it just live for today and make today the best it can be and enjoy everything you have and are given. Especially things & people that can honestly make you smile. Things like that don't come around that often.
~till next time
Thursday, February 25, 2010
perche le cose non sono perfetta
because things aren't perfect!
why cant things be like a photo? things are never perfect are they? there's always something that doesn't let everything work out. or someone?
why is it that there always needs to be something in the way? i feel as though its like i cant be completely happy. ever. somethings always gonna come in between me and what i want. It just keeps happening.
How is it that something/someone can make you soo happy yet so confused and feel so low at the same time? Like say the nicest/cutest things and yet make you confused about what u r to them and making you feel like the ill side chick. =/. W.e idgaf lol ma pa' lante viven gente like my mommy says lol. I love my mommy despite the fact that we may get into arguments at times she knows just what to say and when to say it! I LOVE IT & I LOVE HER! idk what id do without her!
soo in other newss this one guy is really giving me hope for guys. hes sooo cutee. he says the cutest things about liking this girl and her being perfect & amazing and its just SOO cute. Of course its not for me but IDC because its for my twin and it makes me sooo happy. idk if im living vicariously through her or if im just happy cuz shes finally smiling and happy after all the BS and she DEFINITELY deserves it. (i think its a mixture of both but mostly the second one) I LOVE HER OHDHEE!!
"cause i just see my ex girl standing with my next girl, standing with the girl that im fucking right now"- Drake. how do ppl come up with these lyrics? theyre soo good & funny lol. i love drake lol.
so lets give it up for the most RANDOM post ive written yet lol =]
~till next time
why cant things be like a photo? things are never perfect are they? there's always something that doesn't let everything work out. or someone?
why is it that there always needs to be something in the way? i feel as though its like i cant be completely happy. ever. somethings always gonna come in between me and what i want. It just keeps happening.
How is it that something/someone can make you soo happy yet so confused and feel so low at the same time? Like say the nicest/cutest things and yet make you confused about what u r to them and making you feel like the ill side chick. =/. W.e idgaf lol ma pa' lante viven gente like my mommy says lol. I love my mommy despite the fact that we may get into arguments at times she knows just what to say and when to say it! I LOVE IT & I LOVE HER! idk what id do without her!
soo in other newss this one guy is really giving me hope for guys. hes sooo cutee. he says the cutest things about liking this girl and her being perfect & amazing and its just SOO cute. Of course its not for me but IDC because its for my twin and it makes me sooo happy. idk if im living vicariously through her or if im just happy cuz shes finally smiling and happy after all the BS and she DEFINITELY deserves it. (i think its a mixture of both but mostly the second one) I LOVE HER OHDHEE!!
"cause i just see my ex girl standing with my next girl, standing with the girl that im fucking right now"- Drake. how do ppl come up with these lyrics? theyre soo good & funny lol. i love drake lol.
so lets give it up for the most RANDOM post ive written yet lol =]
~till next time
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
ballare =)
To dance.
Idk I didn't have a title in mind lol
So today is ash wednesdayy and the beginning of lent. I'm kinda glad we can't eat meat today cuz I was getting kinda tired of meat and also cause I LOVE shrimp, which is what my mommys making =). So I've never really done lent before like I never gave anything up and stuff but as I've become more faithful and as I've started talking to God more I found myself really wanting to give something up for lent. (Yes I do talk to the big G [haha james] that's my homie lol) but seriously i 've found myself talking to him more and more not only when bad things happen but also good things.
Oh so yea for lent I'm giving up juice and soda. I didn't think it would actually hit me till atleast a week in but this morning I woke up and found myself looking for juice. I realized this is gonna be a lonng 40 days lol.
So yea yesterday was very funn I hung at with jea9 after mad long finallyy =) and also vidi, kristie,caroline, syeda, and sean.I love them all they're always soo fun to just chill with. We went to seans house and played taboo. That was fun and then we went to UNOs and I finally got the skinless bake I've been craving (YAY). Then I came home and chilled with the guys from my building which I hadn't done in a bit and have started doing now that there's a break. We played this drinking game called kings. It was actually reallyy fun we were dying laughing the whole time lol. It was a good time and it reminded me how much fun I always have when I chill with them.
So yea that's me so far. I'm in the salon right now prettying myself up for no reason except to go to work in a couple hours -___-. Which is why I don't have a picture with this post but I will soon =)
& theres the picture i said id add =]. i chose to go with the title to have it relate to something. and cuz i love dancing and thats definitely my escape and one of the things that help me stay happy.
p.s. so my friend told me that the guy that was an a-hole (i should say the last guy to be an a-hole cuz theyve all been a-holes) actually felt bad for what he did and he knew he was an asshole and he felt low =O. maybe guys are finally getting hearts?? maybe there is hope for them? hmm sounds like a new blog topic soon =]
~till next time
Idk I didn't have a title in mind lol
So today is ash wednesdayy and the beginning of lent. I'm kinda glad we can't eat meat today cuz I was getting kinda tired of meat and also cause I LOVE shrimp, which is what my mommys making =). So I've never really done lent before like I never gave anything up and stuff but as I've become more faithful and as I've started talking to God more I found myself really wanting to give something up for lent. (Yes I do talk to the big G [haha james] that's my homie lol) but seriously i 've found myself talking to him more and more not only when bad things happen but also good things.
Oh so yea for lent I'm giving up juice and soda. I didn't think it would actually hit me till atleast a week in but this morning I woke up and found myself looking for juice. I realized this is gonna be a lonng 40 days lol.
So yea yesterday was very funn I hung at with jea9 after mad long finallyy =) and also vidi, kristie,caroline, syeda, and sean.I love them all they're always soo fun to just chill with. We went to seans house and played taboo. That was fun and then we went to UNOs and I finally got the skinless bake I've been craving (YAY). Then I came home and chilled with the guys from my building which I hadn't done in a bit and have started doing now that there's a break. We played this drinking game called kings. It was actually reallyy fun we were dying laughing the whole time lol. It was a good time and it reminded me how much fun I always have when I chill with them.
So yea that's me so far. I'm in the salon right now prettying myself up for no reason except to go to work in a couple hours -___-. Which is why I don't have a picture with this post but I will soon =)
& theres the picture i said id add =]. i chose to go with the title to have it relate to something. and cuz i love dancing and thats definitely my escape and one of the things that help me stay happy.
p.s. so my friend told me that the guy that was an a-hole (i should say the last guy to be an a-hole cuz theyve all been a-holes) actually felt bad for what he did and he knew he was an asshole and he felt low =O. maybe guys are finally getting hearts?? maybe there is hope for them? hmm sounds like a new blog topic soon =]
~till next time
Monday, February 15, 2010
mi rido di te!
so i havent blogged in quite a bit and i thought up a whole blog yesterday and now i forgot =[
but w.e
I am sooo tired of high school. I can't wait to go to graduate and be done with the BS and go to college!
I think the funniest thing is ppl talking shyt about me and basically calling me a slut. I mean honestly if you see my "record" you'd be like WTF ARE THEY TALKING ABOUT. but on top of that its the people saying it. like its sooo funny cuz if you see their "record" youd see who the real slut is. and then to top it off the people they get with / date are on a whole other level of sluttness lol.
why is it that its only ok for SOME people to be slutty? i mean don't get me wrong i don't wanna be a slut im perfectly fine the way i am lol but if its such a big deal if i was a slut then why isnt it a big deal if someone else is? am i just that special that you need to worry about my every move? or are you just hating cuz i dont want you anymore? oohh soo many possibilities lmfao. w.e haters can SMD!
oh btw im still happy. as you can see things & people have tried to put me down but I DONT GIVE A FUCK!! im happy and even though i don't know why i still am so bamm bam hate on it lol =]
^ I take funny pics cuz you can always put a smile on but when youre actually happy you cant contain it with just a simple smile =P
but w.e
I am sooo tired of high school. I can't wait to go to graduate and be done with the BS and go to college!
I think the funniest thing is ppl talking shyt about me and basically calling me a slut. I mean honestly if you see my "record" you'd be like WTF ARE THEY TALKING ABOUT. but on top of that its the people saying it. like its sooo funny cuz if you see their "record" youd see who the real slut is. and then to top it off the people they get with / date are on a whole other level of sluttness lol.
why is it that its only ok for SOME people to be slutty? i mean don't get me wrong i don't wanna be a slut im perfectly fine the way i am lol but if its such a big deal if i was a slut then why isnt it a big deal if someone else is? am i just that special that you need to worry about my every move? or are you just hating cuz i dont want you anymore? oohh soo many possibilities lmfao. w.e haters can SMD!
oh btw im still happy. as you can see things & people have tried to put me down but I DONT GIVE A FUCK!! im happy and even though i don't know why i still am so bamm bam hate on it lol =]
^ I take funny pics cuz you can always put a smile on but when youre actually happy you cant contain it with just a simple smile =P
Saturday, January 30, 2010
la vita è una sfocatura
Life is a blur!.
Despite how hard we try to make sense of our lives and figure out the reasons why everything happens we never really do. Life is a huge blur and you know what?
I've learned to accept it and embrace it.
Life is meant to be full of surprises so if we find out the pattern or the reasoning or whatever it is we won't get the joy of the wonderful surprises god has out there for us.
And yes life does throw us some horrible times. Trust me I know. Times of pure sadness and hardships and even maybe depression and it seems like it will never end!
But then something crazy happens.
And life finds a way to make you happy. like actually happy.
And you realize that had you never been so sad and so low you wouldn't appreciate how happy you are now.
And then you begin to realize and appreciate all the great things in your life. And that just makes you be happier and happier. And people may come around and try to hurt you or try to bring you down but it doesnt matter cuz in the end youre still happy.
And even thats a blur. the exact reason for your happiness is a complete blur. But you dont care. As long as youre happy right?
i mean thats all we want in this life right?
is to be happy and successful.
Except for me happiness is success.
success is being happy the way you are and with what you have and that's it. if you reach that point in life you are successful.
so bring on the blurriness. I'll just take it and make the best of it. =]
~till next time
Despite how hard we try to make sense of our lives and figure out the reasons why everything happens we never really do. Life is a huge blur and you know what?
I've learned to accept it and embrace it.
Life is meant to be full of surprises so if we find out the pattern or the reasoning or whatever it is we won't get the joy of the wonderful surprises god has out there for us.
And yes life does throw us some horrible times. Trust me I know. Times of pure sadness and hardships and even maybe depression and it seems like it will never end!
But then something crazy happens.
And life finds a way to make you happy. like actually happy.
And you realize that had you never been so sad and so low you wouldn't appreciate how happy you are now.
And then you begin to realize and appreciate all the great things in your life. And that just makes you be happier and happier. And people may come around and try to hurt you or try to bring you down but it doesnt matter cuz in the end youre still happy.
And even thats a blur. the exact reason for your happiness is a complete blur. But you dont care. As long as youre happy right?
i mean thats all we want in this life right?
is to be happy and successful.
Except for me happiness is success.
success is being happy the way you are and with what you have and that's it. if you reach that point in life you are successful.
so bring on the blurriness. I'll just take it and make the best of it. =]
~till next time
Saturday, January 23, 2010
che bella e la vita
how beautiful life is. =]
soo yesterday was maaad eventful lol. im not gonna go into details but i will say that it made me think odhee .
guys are all the same so thank god that i didnt let my guard down. thank god that I didn't trust him cuz im such a smart person. so yea guys suck. and ive known this for a while. yet i still want one. whyy? i guess it just feels good to feel like someone cares about you and give you mad attention and its nice to really care about someone too.
& then you have the people who are cool yet do maaaad slutty things yet guys will still wife them over me. its like wth do guys just not like respectable people any more? like do they just go for the easy girls? that reminds me of a quote i once saw
i guess it could be very true. But how long do we have to wait for that guy? and why is it as though we're punished for being good and thats why we have to wait? why cant more guys just stop being little pussy bitches and come up to the highest point on the tree? lol soo many unanswered questions =/.
so the song te regalo amores by rakim y ken y just came on.
Te regalo amores
dentro de tu vientre
pinta'o de colores
dame lo que sientes
Pa' que no llores
tengo amor sincero
amor del bueno
para llevarte lejos de los dolores
thats the love that i need. que me lleve far from the dolores !! (yes my spanglish is the shitt lol)
W.e im still happy so thats all that matter. so far im def. doing really well with my resolution. i stay being happy. LOVE it.!
~ till next time
soo yesterday was maaad eventful lol. im not gonna go into details but i will say that it made me think odhee .
guys are all the same so thank god that i didnt let my guard down. thank god that I didn't trust him cuz im such a smart person. so yea guys suck. and ive known this for a while. yet i still want one. whyy? i guess it just feels good to feel like someone cares about you and give you mad attention and its nice to really care about someone too.
& then you have the people who are cool yet do maaaad slutty things yet guys will still wife them over me. its like wth do guys just not like respectable people any more? like do they just go for the easy girls? that reminds me of a quote i once saw
i guess it could be very true. But how long do we have to wait for that guy? and why is it as though we're punished for being good and thats why we have to wait? why cant more guys just stop being little pussy bitches and come up to the highest point on the tree? lol soo many unanswered questions =/.
so the song te regalo amores by rakim y ken y just came on.
Te regalo amores
dentro de tu vientre
pinta'o de colores
dame lo que sientes
Pa' que no llores
tengo amor sincero
amor del bueno
para llevarte lejos de los dolores
thats the love that i need. que me lleve far from the dolores !! (yes my spanglish is the shitt lol)
W.e im still happy so thats all that matter. so far im def. doing really well with my resolution. i stay being happy. LOVE it.!
~ till next time
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