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I can't believe it! I'm happyyy!! Lol
Ok soo in reality I shouldn't be happy. Like I did some stupid shit and got the response that I knew I would get and I should be sad but for some reason I am soooo happy. I got home and just got in an "I'm good" mood and then my sister came home in a really good mood and that put me in a really good mood as well. And then vidivel texting me odhee tipsy its sooo funny.

But yea the reason why I had to take the time out to make this a blog is that I was showering and I was tryna figure out why I was sooo happyy and I couldn't pin point a reason. And that made me even happier.
Cuz its not like all the other times when something good happens so I get happy, basically conditional happiness. This wasn't that I'm just happy and its an amazing feeling. idk how it happened nor why and idc either I love god for making this happen ahhhhhh xD!! Ok I'm gone!

~till next time

Nada es para siempre!!

So i was listening to music and nada es para siempre by luis fonsi came on (beautiful song by beautiful person lol). nada es para siempre means nothing lasts forever. it made me think a lot.

Obviously material things like money and clothes and tvs and cell phones and all of that arent forever. and i know life isnt forever obviously. but sometimes its reallyy hard to think that some emotions arent forever. like the sadness and loneliness that ive been feeling for soo long doesnt seem to ever end. I keep tryna just pretend to be happy and maybe ill just get happy but that definitely hasnt been happening. ive just maybe stopped being sad for a little while and then ill go back to being sad. FML much? YES.

ive also been talking to my friend sarah & she said something that got me thinking. she said how her ex changed her and like how she goes into talking to guys. and i started thinking of how i dont trust that any guy is serious about me because of so many guys have played games with me. now why do we give people the power to change us? and why is it so easy for them to change us but so hard for us to change ourselves back? or change ourselves period? GRR why must everything be so complicated? why cant we just be happy?

soo speaking of that i figured out my new years resolution. its going to be sooo hard but idc its the only serious resolution ive ever made and i REALLY wanna try to do it. It's to be happy!...atleast to be happy more times than i am sad.

oh and just to let you guys knoww... theres a very good chance that ill be getting my tattoo tomorrow!! if it turns out that i have enough money its a wrappp!! lol kk im out. ciao (had to add some italian somewhere =D)

~till next time

Un bell giorno

ok so I should be doing dishes right now but i think the better thing to be doing is to blog about my day. SO i definitely got an excellent amount of sleep last night (like 10 hours?) and woke up in a great mood. people (and by people you know i mean the person who matters at the moment lol) were (was) being flirty today which of course kept my mood up there*. then 3rd period i check myhofstra and I GOT ACCEPTED. yes that is my safety but it still felt really good being accepted somewhere. i feel like im actually getting somewhere in life and im actually gonna be the 1st 1 in my family to go to college. then the rest of the school day was pretty ok. then we stepped afterschool and it SUCKED ASS!! but w.e we just laughed it off cuz thats how we roll lol. SO i go home to find what...
a letter from fordham. and by letter i mean a big envelope. i start getting gassed but i had seen on common app that i wouldnt find out my result for fordham till dec.25th so w/e i open it thinking watch it be a pamphlet or someshyt but then it wasnt. I GOT ACCEPTED there too. so yea im veryy happyy =]

*sidenote: aww i miss my wifers amy <3 dique "my spanish is up there. you see it? lol!

~till next time